It always astounds me when I look back on my life and can see so clearly the wonderful ways that God has taken care of me....
"Anyone who listens to my teaching and obeys me is wise, like a person who builds a house on solid rock. Though the rain comes in torrents and the floodwaters rise and the winds beat against that house, it won't collapse, because it is built on rock."~Jesus (Matt. 7:24-25 NLT)
I arrived back in Kansas City last Thursday night. When the plane had landed I sat there for about ten minutes before I got off just wondering to myself what in the world I had done. There I was, getting off a plane that had landed in the middle of the country. I had nowhere to call my own, nowhere to unpack my suitcases, lots of uncertainty about getting around on my own and a job that I feel as unprepared for as possible!
Sounds insane to say the least, doesn't it?
I know that I have been able to withstand the torrents and floodwaters in the past, but now I am faced with strong winds of a different kind. Instead of physical danger and lack of physical necessities I am confronted with the dangers of hiding and not being fully known. It would be very simple and comfortable for me to keep my heart guarded with my life as I'm so accustomed to doing.
Last night I was faced with the question, "What do you need from God and your group of friends here in Kansas City?". The thing that came to mind almost immediately (that's how I know it's God, He likes me to say the thimgs that come to mind quickly without rationalizing them away and I'm pretty sure I made Him happy last night) was, "I need something solid, I feel like everything around me is slippery and I need some solid ground".
Today Jesus reminded of His words in Matt. 7. I will find solid ground in my lfie more and more as I choose to follow Him, include Him in my life, seek His advice and answers and then truly listen for His voice and TRUST what He says!!! I desire that my life would be built on solid rock. There are so many choices I have to make each day....
~about work (will I trust that He knows what I'm capable of and hasn't set me up for failure?)
~about my friendships (will I choose to initiate with people? Will I choose not to live out of a double standard and actually let my friends care for and love me as I love and care for them?)
~about every other thing the enemy uses to make me doubt (will I ever have an apartment? Will my family ever recieve Him? Will the orphans I left in Ukraine ever be safe and fully loved here on earth?)
Lord, would You teach me to be wise? Please show me how to build my life on solid rock. Help me to hear Your voice and then to obey when You speak. I ask for the courage to act on what You say without any of my own rationalizations.
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ReplyDeleteYou have grown so much in the last few years...if we blinked we would not recognize you! We are so proud of you and love who you are.