Tonight as I type this I am trying so very hard to cling to sanity....
I had it all planned out. I would come back to the States for 2 months to raise awareness about the Boys Center in Cambodia and to let people here know that I would be going back there for an indefinite amount of time to help get the Center up and running. Then I was presented with the choice to stay in the States and take of care of my own eyesight or ignore it and go back to Cambodia. I heard the Lord tell me where He wanted me for now. Then I thought I'd go back to Cambodia for 2 weeks on the end of my round trip ticket and buy a one way back to the States. Now, the numbers of a ticket price are higher than the numbers in my bank account. So again I'm asking Him what He has for me in this....
I do know that He does have a way for me to still be connected to the thing that was drawing me back to Cambodia in the first place and for this I'm so grateful.....
The Boys Center is something that I am passionate about maybe even beyond what words can tell you. After living in Phnom Penh for almost six months and establishing relationships with over 30 kids who have been coming to Kids Club that I, along with Khmer and other westerners, lead each afternoon,
I have seen the faces, learned the names, heard the stories, visited the homes and shared meals with a group of people who have found their way into my heart like no others. At the core of this group of people are some boys who have a need and Jesus has asked me to partner with Him so it can be met.
The numbers tell us that 1 out of every 6 boys, worldwide, is sexually molested before the age of 16. In Cambodia, where human trafficking is not just a cause to be talked about but, a reality that happens to people with faces to be seen and stories to be told, young boys are being sold into lives of torture. Jesus is not okay with this and neither am I. A 24/7 Boys Center will be started in Phnom Penh-a place where can receive nutritious meals, learn life skills that will afford them wonderful job opportunities and, as time goes on, they will learn that they are safe and will be able to begin not only a process of healing but the process of redemption over their lives.....
I could type all day about the dreams I have for this place....And, maybe sometime soon I'll do just that.
But, for now, I'm trying to keep my eyes on Him. As the things I thought were certain to happen are being shifted more and more each day (especially during the past 2 weeks) I want to be able to continue to trust Him.
Instead of magnifying the problems in Cambodia I want my life to magnify Him and His dreams for their future.
Rather than exalting the schemes and deceptions of darkness in the lives of the Khmer people I want my life to exalt His glory in their country and the ways He miraculously provides for their every need.
As it seems like my plans have changed (and are still changing) I will remind myself that He never changes. His plan has always been for me to be right here, right now, typing this sentence.
When I don't understand things happening around me I often turn to music. The words and emotions that others have experienced remind me that I am not alone, that it is okay to not know and most of all that it is good to be honest because that is how others are encouraged to honesy.
Maybe this song will encourage you today, maybe something you've just read will encourage you and maybe you'll be able to encourage someone else by sharing with them....
I had it all planned out. I would come back to the States for 2 months to raise awareness about the Boys Center in Cambodia and to let people here know that I would be going back there for an indefinite amount of time to help get the Center up and running. Then I was presented with the choice to stay in the States and take of care of my own eyesight or ignore it and go back to Cambodia. I heard the Lord tell me where He wanted me for now. Then I thought I'd go back to Cambodia for 2 weeks on the end of my round trip ticket and buy a one way back to the States. Now, the numbers of a ticket price are higher than the numbers in my bank account. So again I'm asking Him what He has for me in this....
I do know that He does have a way for me to still be connected to the thing that was drawing me back to Cambodia in the first place and for this I'm so grateful.....
The Boys Center is something that I am passionate about maybe even beyond what words can tell you. After living in Phnom Penh for almost six months and establishing relationships with over 30 kids who have been coming to Kids Club that I, along with Khmer and other westerners, lead each afternoon,
I have seen the faces, learned the names, heard the stories, visited the homes and shared meals with a group of people who have found their way into my heart like no others. At the core of this group of people are some boys who have a need and Jesus has asked me to partner with Him so it can be met.
The numbers tell us that 1 out of every 6 boys, worldwide, is sexually molested before the age of 16. In Cambodia, where human trafficking is not just a cause to be talked about but, a reality that happens to people with faces to be seen and stories to be told, young boys are being sold into lives of torture. Jesus is not okay with this and neither am I. A 24/7 Boys Center will be started in Phnom Penh-a place where can receive nutritious meals, learn life skills that will afford them wonderful job opportunities and, as time goes on, they will learn that they are safe and will be able to begin not only a process of healing but the process of redemption over their lives.....
I could type all day about the dreams I have for this place....And, maybe sometime soon I'll do just that.
But, for now, I'm trying to keep my eyes on Him. As the things I thought were certain to happen are being shifted more and more each day (especially during the past 2 weeks) I want to be able to continue to trust Him.
Instead of magnifying the problems in Cambodia I want my life to magnify Him and His dreams for their future.
Rather than exalting the schemes and deceptions of darkness in the lives of the Khmer people I want my life to exalt His glory in their country and the ways He miraculously provides for their every need.
As it seems like my plans have changed (and are still changing) I will remind myself that He never changes. His plan has always been for me to be right here, right now, typing this sentence.
When I don't understand things happening around me I often turn to music. The words and emotions that others have experienced remind me that I am not alone, that it is okay to not know and most of all that it is good to be honest because that is how others are encouraged to honesy.
Maybe this song will encourage you today, maybe something you've just read will encourage you and maybe you'll be able to encourage someone else by sharing with them....
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